It began with one question: "Yeah, but how?"

The question I couldn't stop asking.

I didn't set out to create another journal. I was trying to find a way to work through the things I could understand but couldn't seem to change.

For years, I studied, practiced, wrote, and tried nearly every approach I could find. I learned an extraordinary amount about myself. But I kept returning to the same question.

Yeah, but how?

How do I take everything I've learned and actually live differently?

The BeMo Practice grew out of my search for that answer. And the Journal grew out of my desire to make the Practice something I could return to, in the middle of real life, whenever I needed it.

34 Journals. Thousands of Pages. One Discovery.

Before there was a BeMo Journal, there were 34 journals filled with everything I could find. CBT & DBT exercises, habit tracking, productivity techniques, automatic writing, narrative writing, emotional writing & more. I tried them, questioned them, combined them & filled every page.

By journal #34, The BeMo Practice was born.

I filled them in less than eighteen months, at a time when I was living with severe complex PTSD and was in a very dark place. I was trying to find my way back to myself. Where I am now, compared to where I started, is why I believe in this Practice. Read my full story →

It wasn't created as a product. It was created because I wanted a way to live differently. And when it began changing how I related to myself, my relationships, and everyday life, I realized it might help someone else, too.

The original 34.

The answer I never expected to find.

I didn't used to believe there could be one thing that would help me through my deepest struggles—the things in life we're truly afraid to face. And I certainly didn't think I'd ever find something that could do that and support me through my seasons of joy and growth.

I searched long and hard for it. For decades in therapy. For years in self-help books and academic research.

I never set out to make a product. I didn't expect to create an answer.

And yet, I did.

I did because I had reached a point where I absolutely could not keep doing things the same way. I chose, with profound dedication, to do it differently.

BeMo is that thing that shows up for me when no one else can. In those 2 a.m. moments. In the times when I feel deeply abandoned, worried, or ashamed.

But it's also the thing that has brought more days of laughter into my life. It's taught me to recognize my growth, appreciate my joy, and be present for the parts of life I once might have rushed right past.